Full Moon: This Cosmic Disorder Won't Be Easy! ..the self-obsessive and the group

"The more excessive the Puer’s ‘nice guy’ and charming Persona, the more brutal and cold becomes his shadow. At parties he stays long enough to enthrall and perhaps make a castrating remark to the man of the house before he exits."

I am at my most creative in the mornings, I often spend the 15 minutes between Neath and Swansea thinking about my observations, insights and intuitions. Today it went on longer I walked from Swansea Station to the Bus Station to begin my journey to Mumbles and to join Grant Eden for the monthly show about Educational courses at the centre and t record a programme about loneliness at Christmas. I had a long time to think and these thoughts began to rise up...perhaps they are just idle speculations, they certainly are not all mine. I have taken these ideas and began to speculate of the role of destructive and self obsessed individuals and the organisations they join, belong to and seek subsequently to wreck. Now before anybody gets upset I would like to say I am speaking generally and thinking aloud. If you are disturbed by them then I would ask you to consider why...that is all. Buddha once said that if you find his ideas useful, develop them, synthesise them, apply them, adapt them, criticise them if they are not useful discard them. Ideas are like clothes they wear out........

I am a keen observer of synchronicity. This was my horoscope for the day. I neither believe nor disbelieve them. I notice the context and today was a full Moon. Life is about to get overwhelming! Logic is getting tangled up with emotion in a major way due to the Full Moon in Gemini. This scattered energy coupled with additional planetary friction could make you feel like you have the world at your feet, and yet NOTHING is making sense!

But despite how you may be feeling -- your greatest power is within your grasp! This Full Moon's overambitious influence is creating a confusing duality in your desires -- making you want everything! The trick is to focus on the right opportunities and not get distracted by the rest. Clear your mind and let powerful wisdom light your way...

Theses are the thoughts I had today..........

From my own experience and studies on the narcissist personality type, there is always one core trait: A narcissist is wounded.

Something, somewhere along the line, usually stemming from childhood causes a person to feel worthless and unvalued and, due to this, they will constantly and very desperately seek validation.

. If an empathic and radical organisation is not consciously aware of boundaries and does not understand how to protect themselves, they will very easily and very quickly bond with the narcissist in order to try to fix and repair any damage and attempt to eradicate all their pain. They will regard the narcissist as able, an action figure , someone who is a god send or a boom. Small organisations are most prone to this interaction

What the organisation fails to realise is that the narcissist is a taker. An energy sucker, a vampire so to speak. They will draw the life and soul out of a person or group come into contact with, given the chance. This is so that they can build up their own reserves and, in doing so, they can use the imbalance to their advantage.

This dynamic will confuse and debilitate any group as if they do not have a full understanding of their own or other people’s capabilities, they will fail to see that not everyone is like them. They will always put themselves into other people’s shoes and experience the feelings, thoughts and emotions of others, while forgetting that other people may have an agenda very different to their own and that not everyone is sincere.

The narcissist’s agenda is one of manipulation, it is imperative they are in a position whereby they can rise above others and be in control. The empathic organisation agenda is to bring change, heal and care. There is no balance and it is extremely unlikely there ever will be one. The more support and care an empath offers, the more powerful and in control a narcissist will become.

The more powerful the narcissist becomes, the more likely members of the empathic will retreat into a victim status. Then, there is a very big change—the empath will take on narcissistic traits as they too become wounded and are constantly triggered by the damage being in the company with a narcissist creates. Before long, an extremely vicious circle has begun to develop, trust goes out of the window and the witch hunt begins.......

When a narcissist sees that an organisation that is is wounded they will play on this and the main intention will be to keep the organisation under their down. The lower down an empath becomes, the higher a narcissist will feel. The organisation will begin to frantically seek love, validation, confirmation and acceptance from a narcissist and each cry for help as such will affirm to the narcissist what they are desperate to feel inside—worthy. A bitter battle can ensue.

As an empath focuses solely on their pain, trauma and the destruction of their lives, they become self-obsessed and fail to see where the damage is coming from. Instead of looking outwards and seeing what is causing it, the organisation will turn everything inward and blame themselves.

At this stage must realise the situation they are in and wake up to it, as anyone who is deeply in pain and has been hurt can then become a narcissist themselves as they turn their focus onto their own pain and look for others to make them feel okay again.

Any attempt to communicate authentically with the narcissist will be futile as they will certainly not be looking to soothe and heal anyone or anything else. Not only this, they are extremely charismatic and manipulative and have a powerful way of turning everything away from themselves and onto others. A narcissist will blame their own pain on an empath, plus they will also make sure the empath feels responsible for the pain they too are suffering.

Emotionally exhausted, lost, depleted and debilitated an empath will struggle to understand what has happened to the once loving, attentive and charismatic person they were attracted to.

However we allow ourselves to be treated is a result of our own choices. If an individualchooses to stay in a relationship with a narcissist and refuses to take responsibility for the dynamic, they are choosing at some level what they believe they are worth on the inside. An empath cannot let their self-worth be determined by a narcissist. It is imperative they trust and believe in themselves enough to recognise that they are not deserving of the words and actions the narcissist delivers and to look for an escape.

The more an organisation or group or individual can learn about the personality of a narcissist the sooner they will spot one and the less chance they need understanding and knowledge and to dig deep into one’s soul and recognise our own strengths and capabilities and do everything we can to build the courage and confidence to see it for what it is and walk away—for good.

The chance of a narcissist changing is highly unlikely, so we shouldn’t stick around waiting for it to happen. If a narcissist wants to change, then great, but it should never happen at the expense of anyone else. They are not consciously aware of their behaviour and the damage it causes and in their game they will sacrifice anyone and anything for their own gain—regardless of what pretty lies and sweet nothings they try to whisper.

A narcissist will struggle to have any connection to their authentic self and will likely walk away from the relationship very easily once they realise they have lost their ability to control the empath. The game is no longer pleasurable if they are not having their ego constantly stroked, so they will seek out their next organisation or group .

Someone's got it in for me, they're planting stories in the press
Whoever it is I wish they'd cut it out but when they will I can only guess.
They say I shot a man named Gray and took his wife to Italy,
She inherited a million bucks and when she died it came to me.
I can't help it if I'm lucky.

People see me all the time and they just can't remember how to act
Their minds are filled with big ideas, images and distorted facts.