Why I am an Eco-socialist ...sometimes " I can't see the road for the rain in my eyes"
When you confuse the structure of tyranny with the tyranny of structure. When you can't dance with the Neurodiversity of existence and identity and fled to the Neurotypical nature of conservatism, when you blame Marx for the Soviet Union and Stalin but not Jesus Christ for the Inquisition and the Conquistadors then you are lost. When you think it's your lens that causes your pain and not the lens that is imposed upon you. When you are eating chlorinated chicken and your NHS is owned by American Corporations and When Nigel is gone and Boris and Esther is here.. Mark my words and reflect..
In the end it comes down to who you are really deep inside. Its the emotion for me of seeing my son, seeing my psrtner. It comes down to reaching outwards, it's about knowing the history, literature and culture of Europe. It's about experiences of traveling, knowing the smell of the air in the countries of Europe, it's about smiling about our own odd little ways and theirs. Its about knowing what we share together and not what keeps us apart. Its about coping with the fear of change within ourselves and not about denying it and projecting it onto the other. Its about how the Soul of humanity under Socialism is more alive , more expansive and more aware.
It's knowing that there is more than one book, that there is no us and them. It's about knowing that Tom Paine prior to his pamphlet “Common Sense” reminded the English that they were always part of Europe, its about knowing that Europeans want equal access to knowledge and education. It's about knowing that the French think one way, the Germans another, it's about knowing that the Magna Carta was imposed by French Knights, and the Glorious Revolution by a Dutch Army, that Christmas Trees were a Victorian tradition tradition that came from Germany. Its about knowing that a ruling elite never surrenders it rule easily or gently. Its about how we walk with the broken and the abandoned. Its about having fun, laughing and being kind. Its about knowing that you find prejudice everywhere but you also find empathy. It's about knowing the prejudice within yourself, it's about knowing the true meaning of Jihad. It means struggle with the self and how many really know that.
It's about knowing that even if you have been wrong or broken the law , your argument is still as important and emotional and uplifting. It's about knowing that we are all immigrants, that we all came out of Africa, that our ancestors were all economic migrants, that Aaron Banks that great saint of the Kippers and the Tories has no real loyalty to anything other than themselves and their pockets. It about knowing that the conspiracy of conservatism is simply about hanging on to privilege. That conservatism to quote Mill is empiricism tempered by prejudice. Its about knowing that in the words of Henry James that you can never say the last word on anybodies heart.
It's about knowing and feeling in your heart, tolerance, understanding for the refugee, the victim of domestic abuse, the broken and the outcast. It's about daring to think in new ways it's about crossing over to new solutions and new perspectives. It's about not liking self assurance, and for those who are blaming the other, the little Englander and the simplistic Tory analysis of the Daily Mail.
It's about seeing how Shakespeare was influenced by those European ideas stretching back to the Greeks. It's about seeing how the latest edition of Big Brother shows how important the works of Freud and Darwin were and are. It's about celebrating both popular and high culture and k owing what they are. It's about appreciating that Nietzsche was not a Nazi and that Margaret Thatcher was no friend of the Welsh or women. It's about seeing situations with new lenses and new filters. It's about understanding that we make new wines in both new and old vessels. It's about seeing the Mediterranean Sea and smelling the air. And finally its about possibilities, hope and respect. That is why I am an Ecosocialist appropriately and deeply within my heart.
Its about the symbolism and faith in Socialisn. Its about how by looking at the threat of Isis, we do not forget the evil and poison of the far right. Its about what will come next if we forget the true nature of the Conservative party .. Its about the fact that the right-wingers worship the “free market” and the privatization of the NHS .I look at Esther McVay , and Boris Johnson and I feel a revulsion deep down in my soul, in my mind and see them as abominations to all I have ever learnt, read, or felt. I would rather be a rebel than a slave.I have stood in the dock, lost three houses and been without a bank account and been homeless. Yet i have never sought to blame someone who was darker skinned, has a different sexuality or faith or philosophy. I have never been a Tommy Robinson character locked on the external locus of blame..that is why to the very end I will be an Ecosocialist . In the words of Oscar Wide "Every saint has a past , every sinner a future" Life is a lens through which we see the world and its meaning and that its not my fault if you see the world through a frosted single pane. of glass. I would rather be a rebel than a slave anytime ...my sight may be dimmed but my lenses are wide numerous and multi-dimensional...and yours you bluekippers ? I think not.
It's odd you know my fine bluekippers your not behaving as if you won. June 23rd 2016 May 23 2019 has changed anything Eden is not here ,,,climate change cannot be denied, the conspiracy theories do not satisfy..the lizards are not aliens but the public schooled educated Tory stockbrokers and their handlers like Aaron Banks. The hangover dawn's...
You don't behave as if you won do you? Something is wrong.. there will be many like me who will sit with you as you realise the brutality of the system. We will sit with you in the benefit tribunals; and the failing and cutback health and education system. There was many before us and there will be many after we have gone. From the Gracchi to now and onward each stage of evolution brings more compassion, more tolerance and socialism nearer. Remember no defeat is total no victory final but in each generation there will be the struggle..